Father's Day Blues

There is a special day; comes up every year like clock work

It sticks out like a sore thumb in every store, in every corner
Then you immediately realize, "Shit! Father's Day. I wish you didn't come up so quick".
And if your anything like me; the next thought, "God, I hate that day".
You realize you have the Father's Day Blues

So as you walk the isles
You avoid the greeting cards like the plague
You avoid the balloons that are unusually large
You avoid the pictures frames that say Dad's #1
You avoid even the stupid Father's Day Movies that make you cry
And try not to act so strange and then you realize
You have the Father's Day Blues

And all you want to do is just cry
To sit away from all in sight
Because there is a piece to your heart that is missing
But you do your best to remember they are in a better place
Because of them you are better person.
And you think they no longer have to suffer or see the world fall apart
God is good and keeps him close; so you can give him a quick hello
And you know the Father's Day Blues is not so fun
But you make do or try to

Even still it makes you sad
To think about your Papá gone
Your first love, your first friend,
The one that got you up when you were down
He gave you hugs and kept you safe
He sacrifice to have you with the family
He even visited when both you and him were very far

Not once was there was ever an excuse
To share his love to you and family
He always told you that he cared
You a special girl though you may have not felt all that special at that moment and time.
He just knew how to make you smile
It made you cry that he is not here
You realized you have the Father's Day Blues

But the Father's Day Blues won't be for far too long
Because though he isn't here physically,
You can always have him in your heart
And in your mind and in your life
It will get easier with time
Still hard ...I know

You just have to remember to always say,
"I love you Papá and I miss you too.
You are my biggest fan!
God bless you Papá
I am your biggest fan!

You are the reason I stay so strong
You showed me light when I saw darkness
You showed me love and sacrifice.
You showed me that there was always time to have some fun;
No excuses to never call
You never forgot that I was here
I'm grateful for what you did
You are missed
I hope to hug you tight one day and give you a huge smooch when I see you next
Thank you for being my number one dad
God has me blessed
You are the best. You are the best."

- Veronica Lizet
06/10/2016

@Copy Right

I miss you Papá Mundo. Wishing you were here.  <3 <3 <3 <3

Not all Police Officers are Bad People

I was talking to a mutual friend about my funny conversation with a Police Officer I had had earlier that day (this took place about 4-5 years ago). I had been translating for him and someone that is Deaf. After words, he had decided to see my writing skills. I think he was bored or had a long day, I don't remember why he asked to see my bad writing skills. So anyways I amused him and tried to write with my left hand (which is the one I always write with) and then my right hand (I write poorly, its like chicken scratch). And this Officer is one of the few police officers I get to talk to on occasion (very nice guy) due to work and trainings I'd go to for work. He started to make me laugh with the most ridiculous commentary he was saying. Gosh, I was really struggling trying to be serious. I was really, really trying to be serious but I just couldn't do it. I gave up and just gave in to laughter. Dang him. Lol!

Anyway, this mutual friend that I talked to was just really negative towards police officers. Everything they had told me of their encounters with a police officer was not actually negative; its just their relative happen to not make good choices AT ALL. This mutual friend told me their relative always did something bad that cause the Police to show up for the purpose to serve and protect the community and in this case, also to protect her relative from themselves (they were suicidal) and other times they weren't making wise decisions. I was astonished of all the negative commentary. 

I don't think this person really understood the job of a Police Officer and why we need them. I can count on ONE hand how many times I've had a bad experience (it was two times). But I know for a fact, I can count on both my hands and feet how many times I've had a great experience with Police Officers. And I use to do stuff that required police to be involved to make sure everyone was safe. The places that I'd go to is at 5K's, 10K's, half and full marathons (I would walk the 5K's), film festivals, Interpreting, and work.

It made me sad that this mutual friend I talked to was just so negative. 

I will be the first to say, I'm sorry to all those that feel negative feelings towards them. I am truly sorry you have had a bad experience. I hope that you have better experiences. I hope that you have an experience where they can teach you that not all Law Enforcement Officers are bad people and they can be your friend. They are just as human as you and I. I pray that you are able to soften your heart. They risk their lives every day to help protect you, us, me, our families, our communities, our kids and sometimes even ourselves. They too have families too that they need to return to. I wish this person the best. I hope one day they have an experience like mines when you are trying to be serious but you simply can't do it because the person that you are talking to is really just a silly Police Officer being themselves.

Missing Papá

My reflections for today:

Today while speaking to a customer, I just wanted to cry, suddenly I was reminded how life is short and at times a little harder when you are just wishing the people or person you want so bad by your side but they can't be there physically but are there spiritually watching over you. I can't remember anything the customer said that triggered tears but I remember April 15th... the anniversary of Papá Mundo's passing. Its been almost 2 yrs now and it was like it was yesterday he said Good bye. It was the hardest thing ever. I was at my friends home when I got the call. I almost dropped my phone and I said, "I think I gotta go". I could no longer think or concentrate. Everything else was a blur.

I think it was God's gift to allow him, my Papá, to be fully aware of who I am so I can speak with him and to remind me of the joy it was for him to be here in Utah with me. God I miss him! Not a day goes by that I don't think of him. His a wonderful human being and I wish you guys all met him. You'd love him too. God, please let these next couple of days be good to me. I don't want to start crying in front of my customers. I almost did today.\

El dia de hoy, estaba hablando con un customer, y no recuerdo que dijieron pero yo queria llorar. Me acorde que a veces la vida se siente corta y hay veces que el dia es algo más dificil cuando hay un deseo grande en tu corazon a tener la persona que te hace falta pero te recuerdas que ellos no estan aqui fisicamente p q esta en los cielitos. Pero aun haci, ellos te estan viendo desde haya y cuidandote. A veces nosotros nos olvidamos pero ellos se recuerdan de nosotros. Bueno, lo unico q recuerdo de la conversaccion con el customer es el 15 de Abril. El dia que se fallecio mi Papá Mundo. Era hace 2 años. Ya casi es el aniversario, se siente como por decir, era ayer que se murio. Era un dia muy dificil. Me acuerdo que estaba en la casa de mi amiga y recibi la llamada hayi. Casi deje ir mi cellular q se caiga al suelo. Y lo unico que pude decir "yo creo que es tiempo de irme", y lo demas no se que paso.

Yo creo que por el amor de Dios, me dejo la oportunidad que yo necesitaba. Y eso era hablar con mi Papá Mundo, El bien sabia quien yo era. Me dejo saber que le encanto estar conmigo, a visitar a Utah, estubo bonito. Y solo lo que queria hacer en ese momento es darle un GRAN abrazo. Dios solo sabe cuanto me hace falta. Seria bonito si ustedes lo conoscan porque les encantaria que bonito persona el es. Ojala, en estos otros dias son más facil y ojala no comienso a llorar enfrente de nuestros customers. :\