Just recently I had a scary experience; I was going to what I thought a regular Mammogram exam. Something that I must do since I have family history of breast cancer. I went to it, no big deal, within a few hours of the exam I was called to return to get another one plus a breast ultrasound. Of course, I got nervous, more than ever.
This reminded me of an experience I had when I was 12 yrs old. It was as if it was yesterday; the Doctors were worried because my thyroid was going way out of control. One month it was too high then it was too low. Then my doctor talked to me about cancer (thyroid cancer to be exact) and how it was the only one that has a cure and the best one to have...I stopped listening and became deeply depressed. Hearing the words cancer, then this could spread, we will need to make sure your ok. Did not make me feel at all adequate or settled about anything in my life. I was scared.
Now when I cried a couple times and pleaded with my Heavenly Father...."Heavenly Father, if you can hear me. Please, I'm not ready to leave this place called`Earth`, as terrible as things can be here; I'd like to marry and bring up and raise wonderful children. Please, Heavenly Father. Please give me a another chance. I know I have my flaws but I would like to work with you to be a better person. I need thee, every hour I need thee." Yes, I did ask for another chance. I felt like when first went through with my illness that I was just a child that didn't comprehend life. I also didn't know God at the time like I know Him now.
After, several days of pleading with God and crying out of fear that it was the worstbefore the second mammogram and other exam. I talked to my sister and she gave me comfort. I went back into the office and got yet another mammogram and NO second test. I got the news that everything is ok.
I felt ever so relieved that I was going to be ok and that Heavenly Father did in fact listened to my prayers.
That same night, I not only fervently thanked Heavenly Father for showing me mercy. The night before I asked Heavenly Father to please help me to have a good friend to hang out with to get my mind out of what had just happened that week. And yet again, Heavenly Father never seizes to amaze me. One of my good friends called me to go do something.
I thanked Heavenly Father again and again and again knowing that I can't thank Him enough for being so wonderful and taking that weight of my shoulders.
This experience taught me so much in little than just a week. Heavenly Father is always listening. He never stops. He LOVES and is VERY mindful of His Children. And not only that He cares!! More than you can ever imagine.
I am forever grateful for answer players. For a wonderful Heavenly Father that loves me and cares for me. I'm grateful that my life has been extended and I can give back to the world. He is AMAZING! He gave me hope when I didn't think I could find it or have it and He gave me asecond (sorry of speak) chance and love which I will always be forever grateful for.
It's like it's reads in James 1:5 "If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that given to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him."
It is true. Soo very true. When things are tough, kneel and pray. And always remember to thank your Maker because; it's because of Him your here and He LOVES YOU!!! =)
